Date: July 28, 2025
Place: On my fav chair with the laptop on the table 🙂
Time: 9:44 PM
Mood: Tired but inspired by Raj Shamani’s podcast (I don’t take breaks) Haha
Music: Airbuds (Shaiyara – Dhun)
Well, I decided to write about this beautiful experience – the first time I entered a movie hall alone. I wanted to write about it on that very day after coming back, but some other things kept me busy.
It’s all about my personal experience. I always go out – whether it’s shopping, dinner, movies, or anything – with my family or friends. I had never eaten at a restaurant alone. I had never gone shopping alone. I had never watched a movie alone… until that day (26th July).
Everyone was giving amazing reviews about the Shaiyara movie. I’d also seen the trailer and reels on Instagram. But I wasn’t exactly ready to go until that Saturday morning when I suddenly felt like doing something thrilling. My sister was playing the Shaiyara title song, and that’s when I immediately booked a ticket at Kitipur Cineplex. I chose a seat in the middle row where almost all the seats were unbooked. I wanted to be my own company – no distractions.
I didn’t tell my family or friends because I didn’t want anyone to come with me. This time, I wanted to do it alone.
Well, it may sound like a small thing to some people. But for me – a middle child who’s always with friends – it took a lot of courage. And it was a brand new experience.
My movie time was 4:30 PM (2 hours). Since Saturday is the only day off for corporate employees, I had to finish all my tasks and household chores that day. So, it was already 4:29 PM when I finished everything. I got ready in 10 minutes. I really wanted to wear that one white one-piece I’d been saving for so long. So, I wore it, booked an Indrive, and reached the cinema hall around 4:45 PM.
I was quite nervous and also super excited. Not about the movie – but about me. I showed the ticket screenshot at the pass gate and rushed toward the hall. But… I went to the wrong one. Luckily, someone who was also there to watch the movie helped me find the right hall.
People were already seated and the movie had just started. I turned on my phone’s flashlight and searched for my seat – L9. I found it. (Honestly, I’d never done this before because someone else always did it for me.) I took a deep breath and sat down.
There was silence. Not in the hall – but in my mind.
And then… I felt really happy inside. A bit proud, too. I was like, “Yes. I did it.”
I gave my full attention to the movie. I cried maybe two or three times before the interval. I was enjoying it so much. I didn’t even realize time had passed until the lights turned on. It was intermission.
And then came another wave of anxiety.
Most of the people around me were couples, families, or besties (I missed mine — Swasti ). They were going out for snacks and washroom breaks. I also wanted something to eat and drink. But I was always the “princess” who had people getting things for her. So yeah, I felt nervous about going alone.
But then I remembered something from the book Big Magic – Creative Living Beyond Fear.
And suddenly, I got up, walked straight to the concession stand, and stood in line. I watched how others were ordering and paying.
Then someone asked, “What would you like to have, ma’am?”
He was so polite and friendly, and it made me feel at ease.
I ordered drinks and some regular popcorn, paid for it, and smiled to myself like — “Oh, I did it.” 🙂
I wanted to take some pictures with the Shaiyara poster. So, I waited for others to finish, then took a few selfies and snaps. I also clicked some great photos for a few couples – they were really impressed with my photography, haha. They even offered to take photos of me. I posed, but honestly, my selfies turned out better (though my phone camera isn’t that great ).
I returned to my seat and continued watching while munching. I cried again. I laughed.
Since it was a musical movie, it almost felt like a concert. I sang along with the actors.
The movie ended around 7:00 PM. I came outside and realized – wow, it’s not that hard. I felt like I was actually a good companion to myself.
And when it comes to movies, of course, I’m so into them. So yeah! 🙂
On my way home, I decided to walk. I was wearing that white dress and walking with a happy, proud heart. It felt like that scene from Queen where Rani is running in her pink dress with boots. 🙂
To wrap it up – this may have been a simple act, but it gave me a sense of strength and happiness in parts of my heart and mind.
I felt a different kind of confidence after watching a movie alone.
This was my first experience of treating myself like the main character.
Of course, I’m heavily influenced by movies and dramas. But this experience gave me something for me.
So yes, I do recommend going on solo movie dates.
Not because you don’t have friends or someone to go with – but because sometimes, you need to be your own company.
You don’t always realize it, but sometimes, you just need you to fill you up.
It’s a small step, but it has a big impact on your journey toward becoming that independent and free person. 🙂
It was supposed to be just a diary entry. But I felt like – no, this deserves to be published. So yeah.
Thank you for visiting my blog. 🙂
